being in a long distance relationship is tough.
no one ever said it was easy.

why am i waiting for someone that i've never even seen before?
because i love him , and i trusted him so much that i've never questioned bout his life.


why do i feel like the person that i trusted the most , doesnt trust me at all?

its only 2 days short of our one year.
and to think such an incident could either break or make us stronger.

i hope its the latter.

im sorry, but you really broke my heart this time.

i thought i've made the right decision in telling you.
but why does it seem like i made the wrong decision?

to me,
i dont think im at fault.
i did not initiate, neither did i allow.




neither did i cheat on you.

so, its been busy these few days training for jim beam and schoolwork.
lol.
with my grandma overseas, its harder for me .
had to go home, clean the house and head out again .
not that im complaining ,
but yeah , can get taxing .
lol.

yesterday was an eventful night.
my god.
its pretty scary though.
and yes , the amt of people going definitely matters.
ahaha.

i miss james .
=\
looking on the bright side,
the 7th is coming .
(:
ONE YEAR.
even though we cant be like other couples, heading out for dates,
im still happy with this guy.
heh.

gonna do some work now.
been procrastinating like mad.
bye !

honestly,


people have limits.
cross mine, and you'll definitely see a change in me.

im feeling so lazy now.
omg .
im supposed to do work.
zzz.

GREAT JOB TO REVOGUE, SUB, EPIC CREW !
heh.
we did awesome on saturday.
(:
i think we did justice to 'beat it'.
i could really really feel the rocker attitude while i was dancing.
probably thats how MJ felt when he sang that.
dope shit.
the crowd went wild.
i went wild too.
(:
hee hee.
cyphered in O bar.
its dope. everything's dope.
hahaa.
and we really had fun .

so today's mom's day.
watched transformers.
and seriously, the cinemas's packed like crazy shit.
we sat so front , lol.
but its all worth it.
for that 2 and 1/2 hours!
i laughed, i cringed , i stared intently.
it kept me there, for the 2 and 1/2 hours, which i think most movies cant do.
(:
dope to the max.
please watch it asap.
heh.

after the movie, we went to eat.
dome @ shaw centre.
my experience wasnt good over there.
waited for some time because the cafe is small, and we had to queue .
so there's this spot for two.
so we let the couple behind us pass first.
waited and when its our turn , went in and ordered food.
lol.
so when our first dish came , the waitress didnt ask , like whose dish was that.
she's like, put on the table and walk away.
i dont like that kind of service.
-.-
so i just kept quiet, and watched if the same service was given for the rest of the dishes.
apparently yes.
-.-
so , i got pissed.
i wanted to write on the feedback card , but i didnt have a pen.
so i waited .
till my mom asked for dessert. she asked for panna cotta. and she saw it when she walked in .
then when she asked the waitress, the waitress was like, ' what? whats that.'
honestly.
-.-
even i knew what was that.
so my mom had to walk to the dessert counter and show her that-.-
and funny , panna cotta in dome , is called 'forest cake'.
?
LOL.
then , i asked for a pen .
and seriously, i wrote whatever shit that came into my mind.
=x
i can get bitchy at times.
HAHHAA.

so we walked around after that, scouted for costumes at far east.
when we wanted , it didnt appear.
but when we dont need it , its like everywhere.
seriously annoying.
=x

then , went home after awhile.
lol.
bought some stuff.
(:
its been a long time since i got myself something .
heh.

-
talking to baby now.
lol.
missed him so much.
=\
poor guy got so tired from work.
wish i could do something bout it .
zzz.

school's later.
oh.
and grandma's gg to taiwan for the whole week.
seriously, say im mean or whatever.
but i feel light bout it .
if you get what i mean .
=p


bye!

just a short post before heading for revogue training. heh.

its been awhile since i posted.
haha.
been too lazy to do anything , and i seriously mean anything .
LOL.
i just wanna lie on my bed and stay there the whole day.

Jim Beam competition is tomorrow !
(:
pretty happy and excited to dance with my revogue girls .
lol.
i missed dancing with them so much during KO night, and now its my chance! heh.
hopefully everything goes smoothly for us tomorrow.
yayy.

school's started .
haha.
projects due arent too tough for now.
heh.
and SIP!
pretty excited cause the law firm im going seems nice.
(:

and i missed my baby like crazyyyy.
like really crazyyy.
hhahaa.
i did something stupid yesterday night though.
cause james and i barely talked as i returned home late,
so i really missed him and couldnt sleep.
so i stared at his photo, couldnt take it , and whipped out my phone.
took a shot of the photo and saved it as my wallpaper.
hahahahahahaha.
i know its retarded.
=x
so i slept , after a long time of staring and listening to his emomo song.
haha.
=x

okay , gtg now.
BE BACK SOON !=X